in the eyes of Aurora

12/05/2012 around 9.30 pm ish

Me and my boyfriend went to buy the ticket and upon confirming, she said “ok, it’s 2 ticket for the movie ‘safe’ at 10.30 pm” we said “yeah” then she added “this movie is 18 plus okay”

we looked at each other

my boyfriend broke the silence “do we look like we’re under 18?” I was just smiling, thinking, yeah maybe her boss made her say it to everyone who r going to watch 18+ movies as a.. i dunno reminder like “beware„ it’s 18+ meaning there’s gonna be gore scene and bloods and gunshots! please bring ur own plastic bag if u have weak stomache and don’t sue us if you have a traumatic future because you watched a movie from us. Don’t say we didn’t warn ya!”

but all she did was points at me with her thumb politely and said “she looks young”

I flipped.

I was going to ask her “you mean younger than 18???” but I was too happy about that comment I… am still too happy thinking about it HAHA.

SRSLY? HAHAHAHAHHAHA

nope, not me

11/05/2012, 7:01 am

Yesterday, I woke up from my sleep at around 12 pm. I haven’s sleep since. This is not my first time doing this that it is so important that I have to write it here, but I do, feel extremely bored. This is the fact that I am not feeling sleepy at all, and I don’t see the point of sleeping either because I have complete of nothingness to do later in the daytime anyway. This is my problem, After I finish my exams I complained about how it is so boring and how I don’t have anything to do but when the term starts I’ll always complain about how the break isn’t enough. and here I am complaining about my complains. yeah whatever who cares anyway

8/5/2012, 7:17 pm

despite the fact that my final exam is less than 24 hours, this music played on my playlist and I felt something I cant really describe. It was there for 2 seconds and it was gone. It was so deep, I was so lost for that whole time. Like a flashback, a cozy purple room and a really safe place. I felt warm and content, energetic and the need to jump around.

wow, get back studying, Monique

An analogy to the problem of multiple access is a room (channel) in which people wish to talk to each other simultaneously. To avoid confusion, people could take turns speaking (time division), speak at different pitches (frequency division), or speak in different languages (code division). CDMA is analogous to the last example where people speaking the same language can understand each other, but other languages are perceived as noise and rejected. Similarly, in radio CDMA, each group of users is given a shared code. Many codes occupy the same channel, but only users associated with a particular code can communicate.

I want to run.

I want to be in a higher grounds.

I want to go to the endless green meadow with tall grass.

I want to rest my feet on a rocky river with clear water gently flowing.

I want to embrace the sun, feel the cool breeze, breathe that freshly watered plants smell and listen to the birds chirping in a distance.

I just want to lie there, without hesitation, without anxiety, without paranoia, without fear, without pressure, without burden, without expectations, without the world.

forever.

This actually happens to me at different times randomly. some people thinks I act like this everyday, that’s because they only see me when I feel like this. I have times when I feel like I just wanna sleep all day too but on times like that, I actually sleep all day (well, not all day, just, you know… you know.) and I dont meet with people. I just want to take note that today, I feel hyper today, and I had a lot to say to people but what comes out from my mouth are laughter and some jumbled up words and some help to describe what I am trying to say from movements from my hands. And I felt like this after I had my evening lunchner (a meal between lunch and dinner) which is an Indonesian meal with a very… very.. hot/spicy chilli. so… yeah. I am taking note what might be the reason behind my hyper-ness.

OH WAIT. I had a SLURPEE!

wait that was yesterday night.

thanks a lot my internet company who forgots the modem’s username and password, thanks a lot to my dad who didnt pick up his phone when i wanna ask what’s the internet’s username and password, and when he does pick up, he didnt remember what it is, and thanks to my brother who didnt pick up his phone coz i dont know the username and password of the wireless router, and if he does pick up, i bet he doesnt remember it either.

without them, i could fix it all by myself. period.